Your Own Worst Enemy
Here I am once again,
looking at the same view ahead of me that I was pleased to see fade in my rear
view the last time. I know what it is
because I have been here numerous times before. Why am I here again? Am I doomed to repeat the same mistakes over
and over again? Ooops I did it again.
Sometimes I laugh at myself but other times I cry. I cry out of anger
and disappointment because I can and should be better than this. What is the repetitive failure for? It’s like
I am that hamster in the wheel running in circles always looking for the exit
but never getting off the wheel. I have
dissected this before. I found the meaning that I thought was relevant and
believed that I learned an important lesson. Yet here I am again. It’s a
confusing maze, or something like a mirage that led me back to the same
point. I thought I was taking different
steps, a new path, yet still here I am my own worst enemy.
Three times, four
times, eight times, Ten!!! I see no
resolution to my senselessness. It’s simple for me to get rid of others who are
conducive to the places in my life that I don’t want to be, but how do I
discard myself? Is the answer routed in love of thyself? Maybe logic can assist.
I am told to follow Jesus. Can he be the answer I seek? Through the valley of
shadows and death Jesus is my shield and guide.
I do follow him but like a hollow headed sheep become lost all over
again. I have made the wrong turn and end up looking at my past straight into
my future.
I have no solutions just interpretations. The forum is now open.
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